As a teen – I had perfect skin. I could go to bed at night without really taking off my make-up and I’d still wake up with flawless skin. I didn’t have to stress about the products I used or what I ate, my face remained spot-free. Then I hit my 20s and my skin was like “TAKE THIS, SUCKER” and decided to break out on a constant basis. I use pro-products, see a dermatologist and drink loads of water – mostly to no avail. It’s left me feeling insecure, stressed and freaked out. But, as The BF pointed out to me the other day, why am I pressurising myself for this ideal of skin? It’s not actually all that common to have ‘perfect’, spot-free, flawless skin.

I think a lot of it is what we see, of course, in celeb culture. What we see of celebs in the press – websites, movies, magazines – is all so highly…produced. I know it’s been said a million times, but it’s all Photoshop, make-up and really good lighting. The hard thing is, even though we know it’s not real, repeatedly seeing these perfected images of celebs begins to make us think this is a real, achievable image of beauty. Of course, there are people who have great skin and hardly suffer a breakout, but many, many people do have issues with their skin throughout their life. Even celebs (no matter how perfect they look on screen).

Perhaps it’s just a delusion I hold, but there seems to be a judgement attached to the appearance of your skin, much like there is to weight (which I spoke about in Thinspiration). Having bad skin must mean something about you personally: you don’t clean your skin properly, you only eat junk, you’re not pretty if you’re spotty, if you’re an adult you should have perfect skin etc. Which is all pretty ridiculous, especially the last two. Where do these ideas come from? When did having spots become something…gross and embarrassing? It’s normal. It’s what skin does from time to time.

My journey? To accept my skin is as it is. I’m taking hormones to try normalise it and it’s by no means an instant fix. It’s going to take time and patience – something I’m not good at. But more than that? Being gentle, kind and caring with myself. And hopefully, one day, accepting of me as me.

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3 thoughts on “Sk-insecurites

  1. Thanks for this. 🙂 My skin is my biggest self-esteem killer… Nice to have the whole issue put into perspective. The dermatologist put me on roaccutane for another 3 months (sigh), so I’ll have to wait a while until the end result. It will be great to not have to put up with so much discomfort (bad skin hurts sometimes!) but I know it will never be perfect. And I guess that’s ok. 🙂 This post made me feel better. My skin is really bad at the moment and I feel quite self-conscious at work and stuff. So yeah. It’s like you read my mind or something. 😛

    Hope the hormone thing works out for you. If not, speak to your dermatologist about roaccutane. It’s a horrible drug to be on, but it really works once it’s over, and they tailor the dosage to your own situation, so you don’t have to go on a strong dose with lots of side-effects if your skin isn’t very bad. I messed everything up by going off the pill, hence me having to take a second course but honestly, it’s amazing, whether you’re doing it for the self-esteem or just because of the physical discomfort of skin problems. If you have any skin-related rants, feel free to email me. I’m in a similar boat and all! ❤ And by the way, Jess, you're beautiful. 🙂

    • Thanks Miss Laurie Pie! Doc says Roaccutane wouldn’t work for me (something to do with hormones blah blah). So far it’s helping a little, but theres a long way to go I feel. I just want to have m old skin back!

      And miss laurie, you are beautiful – I never notice your skin looking bad. I hope this second time works for you. ❤

      • Oh ok. How long does the treatment take for that? Yeah, it’s annoying when undesirable changes happen! I’ve had good skin a few times and it’s so annoying knowing what that feels like and then having to deal with bad skin. Super frustrating. I loved being able to leave the house without make-up on. At the moment, I wouldn’t go out make-up-less if you paid me to. xD I’ve never noticed your skin looking bad either! I guess the skin thing affects the person who has it the most. You definitely would notice my skin now because it’s flaring up as the initial side-effect of the roaccutane. Major breakout horror! The flare-up is only starting to die down now after a month of being on the drug. But I’m getting pretty good at make-up. 😛 I’m sure it will work this time. Apparently many people need a second dose of the drug anyway, and the chance of it being a permanent cure is then greatly increased. So here’s to hoping! 🙂

        *many huggles*

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